I feel like I need a drink. I have pepsi, good rum, my son is asleep, and my man is visiting a friend. Nothing went as planned today. My car had a loose connection to the battery, and no matter how many times i jiggled the wire, it wouldn't start. So, here I am stuck at the store, car-retarded and without vice grips, and freezing cold. Anyway, I called my old man who took a cab with my son in tow. Once he got there, he had the car going in minutes. I seriously felt like a dunce.
Now, all I want to do is drink, but it won't help. I limit myself to 2 drinks when I drink because I have a tendency for alcoholism. At least i can cut myself off though, when I'm alone anyway. If I have people around me drinking, then I drink myself stupid, depending on the company. I avoid bars for this very reason. I miss the days when there were little or no consequences for my actions, back in the day when I partied hard. At the same time, I felt very lonely. I'm in a good home now. I have a son and a hubby, a family that loves me. Why do I want to go wild sometimes? Is this normal, even though I feel happy? I remember who I use to be, but I'm not that anymore. I know that!
I think, I will have one drink though, just to calm my nerves. Peace!
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